December 25th, 2009 by IamDraven

My boyfriend is awesome.  He truly is.  I’m trying to beat the Mafia Wars game on MySpace and doing a pretty good job of it.  The one thing I’m having a problem with is the one ‘accomplishment’ where you log in for 20 days straight and do a job.  I have dial up at home which makes it next to impossible to log in, and hot wiring my blackberry as a modem only works until someone calls me and I get kicked off line. 

So my awesome bf, at my request, received my password so he could log in for me on days I couldn’t to play this game for me (only takes a few minutes). 

Now on my myspace, you can have a status.  For example: “It’s Christmas Day and I’m stuck at work!” would be my status, and I can choose from a list of moods and matching smiley/frowny, etc faces.  My status was from August 1, 2009.  The morning after I saw my favorite band in concert and also got to meet them.  My status said: ‘Not only did I see Sugar Ray in concert, but I got to meet the band, and Mark McGrath HUGGED & KISSED me 3 times!  ::faints:: My mood said “Stoked” and my smiley was a big green one smiling a smile so big it took up most of the face.

Yesterday at work Erik called me and I heard him say something about commenting on my status since it was still on my page from August.  I said ok, that’s cute and went back to work.  Last night when I managed to sign in using my BlackBerry modem I saw my status had been changed to:

“Just FYI my boyfriend is completely awesome and I can’t wait to see him tomorrow.”  Mood: “Romantic” Smiley was a yellow one that had flashing hearts instead of eyes.

 Obviously I freaked the fuck out.  I even called him to confront him about it.  For me, seeing my favorite band in concert, and even getting to meet them, well just the concert was #1 on my bucket list.  I had joked that I could now die happily since that’s all I needed to do in life!  That’s why I never changed it.  Every time I logged in and say t hat I was taken back to July 31st for a minute and was smiling and in a good mood.  So yeah, I was pissed.  But I was also very upset that he changed something without my permission.  I gave him permission to log in and play games for me, not change anything on my personal page.

And yes, I know all he did was change my status, but to me that’s a betrayal of trust.  That’s like saying could you go to the grocery store for me, I’ll even give you my card, but just get THIS item, and they come home with a whole bag of things you didn’t give them permission to use.  My cousin’s ex would get on her page and delete people he didn’t like, leave comments as if they were from her, etc.  And I probably did overreact,  but in my mind, Erik broke my trust by changing my status.

A male friend I talked to brought it up this way.  Maybe it’s an ego thing for him, you have a status about this guy hugging and kissing on you from a band, and yes  he’s a famous guy, but maybe your boyfriend now doesn’t appreciate it, and that’s why he put something about him up there instead.  He does have a point.  Erik and I were just casually dating back in July when I went to the concert, not an actually couple like we are now.  But if this were the case I wish he had said something to me about it.  He never changed his social networking pages to say he’s in a relationship because he didn’t want his Mom’s side of the family to know yet. (Dad’s side knows all about me)  But now that Mom’s side knows, there’s no excuse for him not to update his relationship status to reflect that we’ve been seeing each other since May, and bf/gf since October.  But I didn’t go onto his page and change them for him.

I know I overreacted, so I’m going to apologize for that, but am I wrong to think that I deserve an apology also?

December 18th, 2009 by IamDraven

I heard this song on my way home last night and it reminded me where I was a year ago.  I had a ring on my left ring finger that felt like it was made of acid.  Every time I looked at it I got angry and tried to remind myself I was supposed to love the man who put it on my finger, even though I truly had no respect for him, was full of resentment towards him, and yes, even hated him.  Even telling him things directly to his face, so I was passive aggressive via my music choices.  If telling him to his face wasn’t getting it through, at least I could sing along with someone who understood. 

This Christmas I’m in a much more stable relationship with someone who has a job, a car, a driver’s license, personal hygiene habits and doesn’t live under his parents thumb at age 32 (especially since he’s 28), and no ring on my finger this time.  As angry as I was towards Mike last year, I couldn’t be much happier with Erik than I am now.

 God has truly blessed me this holiday…

Energy – Keri Hilson

I wish I could rip out a page of my memory, ’cause I put to much energy in him and me.  Can’t wait till I get through this phase cause it’s killin’ me.  To bad we can’t rewirte our own history

Such a mystery,
When he’s here with me,
It’s hard to believe I’m still lonely,
Chances fadin’ now,
Patience runnin’ out,
This ain’t how it’s supposed to be.

I’m havin’ nightmares from sleepin’ with the enemy,
How do we reverse the chemistry?
I don’t want us to be the end of me
This love is takin’ all of my energy.

Seems only like yesterday,
Not even gravity could keep your feet off the ground when you’re with me,
How can two be as one  have become so divided now?
There’s no use hidin’ from misery, (no).

Now I can feel you changin’ me
and I can’t afford to slip much further
from the person I was meant to be.

I’m not afraid to walk alone
not giving up but moving on
before it gets to deep
cause your taking all of my energy.

You’re killin me ,
You’re takin’ all of me, yeah, oh ohh.

(This love is takin’ all of my energy.)

December 10th, 2009 by IamDraven

You’ve got to be kidding me.  I’ve got body issues, and I’m not a former beauty queen.  Some people are never happy.  If I were her I would have had my teeth fixed before my butt!

BUENOS AIRES, Argentina (Associated Press) — A 38-year-old former Miss Argentina has died from complications after undergoing cosmetic surgery on her buttocks.

Solange Magnano, a mother of twins who won the crown in 1994, died of a pulmonary embolism Sunday after three days in critical condition following a gluteoplasty in Buenos Aires.

Close friend Roberto Piazza said the procedure involved injections and the liquid “went to her lungs and brain.”

“A woman who had everything lost her life to have a slightly firmer behind,” he said.

Magnano’s burial Monday was shown on Argentine television.

Dr. Gonzalo Cortes y Tristan said she arrived at his hospital with an acute respiratory deficiency. Her condition deteriorated until she suffered the embolism.

Courtesy of The Huffington Post

December 2nd, 2009 by IamDraven

We understand why the mainstream media would want to take every opportunity they can to let the world know that they’re on Twitter.  After all, Twitter’s “hip,” right? Sometimes, though, they can get a bit overzealous, go on a blind, tweeting rampage — and commit a massively hilarious fail in the process.

Such is the case for one local TV station in Mobile, Alabama that had the great idea of putting up live news tweets on their electronic roadside billboard, which featured three of the channel’s anchors. Good idea, except when the headline involved three people accused of gang rape, which ran directly opposite the trio of statically smiling broadcasters. The implication, of course, being… well, obvious.

December 1st, 2009 by IamDraven

This is the promised second part of an earlier blog And The Glow On Your Face Just Because Of One Rose…

Today’s blog title taken from In Your Eyes by Peter Gabriel

I promised Erik I’d talk about his awesomeness in another blog after my car accident, but life got crazy and I didn’t get the chance.  It’s a few months overdue, but back before Erik and I were officially a couple he behaved better than 99% of all my ex’s.  My beloved SUV Black Beauty was t-boned that Tuesday by a woman I can only describe as a bitch.  I was in a lot of pain and worried about my SUV.  Friday of that week I was notified that she managed to bend the frame of my SUV.  I called Erik crying and he just knew.  I ended up doing to MD to visit him that night, after, of course I got the flowers he sent me as discussed in the linked in post at the top of this one.  I went home the next afternoon and found out I had gotten a package in the mail.

The note to the right in the photo says: “Tracey, I know this won’t fix your car or heal your wounds, but hopefully it will make your day a little brighter.  Enjoy.  Erik”

Say Anything was the movie we watched on our first ‘at home’ date.  And the fact that I got it on Saturday means he had purchased and sent it earlier in the week, after I was first in the accident.  Since then his awesome has been much documented, but I promised him I’d finish this, and I’m a woman of my word.  ( A late word, but my word none the less)

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